Balance

Day 36

I think I compartmentalize my life way too much.  Only the big areas, though.  I mean, I don't do it over random stuff...  just the big stuff...  you know... work, love life, spiritual life.  Those are the big 3 for me.  It seems, though, when one of those areas are going well, the other two suffer or stagnate.

A while back, I asked the universe if I was allowed to have it all...  you know...  success in all three big aspects of my life.  My answer was favorable.  Now... how in the world do I make this happen?  How do I find a way to balance the three and allow the success I'm enjoying in one area to flood into the others?

Love life?  it's great.  finally.

spiritual life?  I've felt blocked for a long time, but I'm actually starting to work on that.  I really feel like we may be getting somewhere, too.  I'm feeling more hopeful about it than I have in a long time.

work life?  I don't know what to say about that.  I love the company I work for.  I love the people I work for.  I guess I just feel like I'm about to max out.  Kind of like how I felt when I transferred into the department I'm in now.  The one I came from?  there was no room to learn more, do more, get better, or grow.  I'm not claiming perfection.  I guess maybe it just isn't much of a challenge anymore?

I don't know... I need to figure out how to make everything blend nicely together.  I need to.  This isn't a want.  that's for sure.

Futility

Day 34

I want to say so many things...  but what would the point be?  To make myself feel better?  Sometimes, you have to stop and ask yourself if the fallout will be worth it.  It hardly ever is.  Stupidity will always rise up and attempt to defend itself.  No matter what.  So, sometimes, no matter what you say or do, it's best to just shut the fuck up, suck it up, and get on with your day.